It’s still dark out. I was able to get some rest last night. I’m up and showered and dressed and as usual, my car is packed up so I can finish putting some mighty fine locally made goods on The Stillroom shelves. The beyond delicious Orange Cranberry Pecan brittle is in stock (from a very small candy maker from Bucks County) and is selling at wholesale prices so go snatch them up! I’m stocking some most excellent homemade varieties of fudge from Wisconsin and oh my!
The Stillroom pantry at Diamond Antiques & Gifts is ready with all of the tea, honey, sweets and dry goods for your shopping pleasure.
I’m sipping my morning chamomile tea and contemplating my next step. So, today we break some very sad news to our son and I’m going to remain as upbeat as I can. I mean, At this point, everything is just a question mark.
There are no solid answers so it is like living in a fog. I’m feeling a little down this morning so I put on a pink top. I think it’s working.
When I immerse myself in my shop I find real peace and joy. So that’s where I’m going in a few. I work in the dark ( my space is lit) before the other vendors arrive because I don’t really want to see anyone yet.
Today’s pic is a reflection of autumn weeds and a puddle. Kind of how I feel.
I have to get on this paint project when I get back. Keeping busy is all there is.
I found a paper on how to properly say a rosary. I think it was from my moms house when we were going through things after she passed over Easter this year. I know most of it but forgot how to say the Apostles Creed. I have a pretty set of beads and always kept them in a special little container I bought at Sunset Beach in Cape May a few years ago. It is a very good meditation.
I always told Mike when I pass I want my ashes tossed into the Allegheny River. I love this river valley so much. But, I still have time to reconsider as he and Anthony balked at that idea. This was a conversation we had last year before all of this happened. Anthony said no, they would dump me off at Sunset Beach. We went there a lot with the kids back in the day.
That would be nice. But, the sun hasn’t set on this girl yet❤️
The Stillroom 
I am really enjoying all the photos. Today’s seems especially beautiful and poignant. (Also I dig your new hair cut!) You have tests coming up this weekend right? Are you going to be telling your son via Zoom? I know that will be hard. I can’t help it, I’m hopeful that you will find a way to beat this. I am looking forward to your updates no matter what though. You guys know I’m not religious at all, but whatever form good vibes or prayers or whatever have taken for me, I am sending all of them your way.