The Stillroom

Sometimes, life leaves ya hanging.

I usually jump out of bed and get out early. Today was different. I took a mild nerve pill before bed last night but my eyes still opened at four am.

My stomach really ached a lot last night so I put a heating pad on it for comfort and it seemed to tame it down.

When I wake in the middle of the night, I almost always put on a podcast to lull me back to sleep. Usually I listen to true crime or David Spade or Rob Lowe. I will tackle Wordle and a mini crossword puzzle.

I fell back to sleep and then just had weird dreams. I mean, really weird. I opened my eyes at seven then felt like I slept in late. Late for what? I fed the cat (I gave her a small spoonful of food at 9 last night and she slept in too) and was ready to get up and out and decided to lay back in bed and watch yesterdays tv recordings.

It is actually nice to do this. I have to be up and out tomorrow morning at 6 for my CT scan so today, I rest. At least for a bit longer.

I have things to do today and it’s going to be beautiful. Im visiting my dad this afternoon so I do kind of have to bust a move. Now with the time change Im worried that I’ll sleep in and miss my hospital appointment. Ugh!

Always something.

We spoke with our son yesterday and I told him I need him to be Superman at his new job. That’s what I need from him. We will handle things up here.

I think Im going to wrap it up here for this beautiful Saturday morning but will follow up with how my day went and how Im feeling both physically and mentally at the end of the day.

Right now, I truly think Im just going through the motions of what I have to do to get through another day. Shower, try and eat something that won’t mess me up, vacuum and mop the kitchen. Still painting. Not sure why I even started that bc I don’t like to paint. Still gathering stuff for Goodwill so there will still be trips to there today as well.

Office and workshop are starting to look lean. Not quite an echo in that room but definitely stripped down from where I started.

Later

It was a productive day today. Other than my nerves being frazzled, clearly keeping busy is the key. It’s so hard to occupy my mind though. I have so much I feel I need to take care of and I am trying so hard. I did the usual. I took my dads pills to him and turned that duty over to my sister in law now that my life is a question mark. It was a nice drive down 28 and construction was halted for the weekend so it was smooth sailing. I handed off his meds but didn’t stay as usual. Dad is coming up to the house tomorrow to see it most likely for the last time. All of us “kids” will be there. Im looking forward to that. The house is ready to put on the market and I have to say it is in move in condition. My sister and I did a great job getting it painted and updated. I came home and made some headway with my painting project. Im am tired though. Still no pain to speak of, just occasional mild discomfort but that could just be everyday aches. I guess that it for now. Good night 🌙