The Stillroom

I actually took this pic early Sunday morning. It’s the typical “I can’t move because I have a cat on my lap” situation.

It’s Monday morning. I really have to push myself to not just sit in a chair and do nothing. I have stuff set out to take to the shop and I have some errands to run. I can’t tell if I’m woozy, tired or depressed or all of the above. I packed a “go” bag last night in case I felt I had to go to the hospital. If I do go again, it will be by ambulance because sitting in the ER is just too much. It is probably a physiological test of will. It is so easy to just sit back and absorb the reality of my situation and I know this is not a good thing. This is probably why my lower back hurts so much. I do understand why movement is so vital. Can you believe I’m still staring at this last little stupid paint project? I just keep looking at this unfinished cabinet in the kitchen. It’s probably a 30 minute task and for some reason, I can’t bring myself to do it. I will try and if I get it finished, you can bet I’ll post a picture. Our home was built in 1960 and is like a small apartment only it’s a small ranch. We have been here about seven years. This is our downsize house.

I put off getting the kitchen gutted because I didn’t want the chaos of living in the back room during construction. I’m ok with the original cabinets etc. so I decided to paint them with this new paint that just goes on so nice and dries fast. This house is an open floor plan and the seller painted the kitchen gray and I really don’t like it. A few years ago I painted the living room a nice sage green although my sister sees it as grayish. Maybe more like a greenish- clay is how I see it. Anyhow, the front of the house is basically all one space so I matched the new cabinet color pretty close to the living room. I can’t believe how great I felt last Monday compared to today. So I know this is a mental battle. The idea of blood clots in my legs and lungs was just not something I saw coming at all. As usual, I felt pretty good. No shortness of breath or anything. Just the debilitating pain in the inner ankle that turned out to be the culprit here.

It is a lazy Monday. I believe the lack of sunshine has a lot to do with the lack of motivation. Pretty sure they go hand in hand. I did find a nice new jazz channel and it’s so smooth. Maybe that’s the problem. Lol

I need to hear some via Chicago with all of its noise and chaotic drumming.

How do I feel? Physically a little beat up but mentally stifled.

That’s the morning report for now. No telling what this day will bring. I grateful for still being upright and not in the hospital. So there’s that.

Mike is now under the weather too. Probably brought on by our new reality.

We are being put to the test.