The Stillroom

This is my little tree on the front stoop. Had a restless night. Too much on my mind. Starting to feel more abdominal pain. Maybe nerves. Maybe spread. I had a not great day yesterday. I think I’m depressed, scared, anxious and whatever else you want to throw in there. I’m no picnic to be around. I have nothing to really talk about. I’m not looking forward to Christmas. I guess I have to dig really deep to find the positives in this situation. Ok . Got to wake up. Got a proactive doctor that is caring for me now. Hospital folks that care for patients are angels, still able to function as a human, able to drive, paring shop down, great husband, great family and friends, still managing some upkeep around the house, trying to start my new day with a better attitude. That’s it for now. It’s going to start to get more interesting in the coming weeks. Grateful for what I have, now.❤️

Trying harder.