The Stillroom

Here is one of the new knit hats from Judy! I love it so much I took a rare picture of me! Feeling pretty good today. Mike put me in the car for a drive to the grocery store. Since I was diagnosed I kind of stopped cooking (mostly). I had to ditch green beans, celery, onions, carrots, radishes and lettuce. It was an embarrassment of vegetables that went unused. I have never done that before. Since I didn’t have my chemo last week, I have felt almost like a normal human. I go again on Monday so I have to start to mentally prepare myself for down time. I wasn’t sick, I was just super weak and that was hard to not be able to do anything other than sleep. I’m hoping to have a talk with my doctors about how this is going to pan out. I can’t see myself doing that every two weeks. The day I started to feel better was the day I was to have another treatment. I think I would be in bed constantly for four months. I still can’t believe I have stage four cancer with no cure because I feel so good right now. We all meet our fate at some point, I know. But, this is particularly difficult just not knowing anything other than my time on this planet it limited way more than I thought it would be. Funny how life turns out, eh? Maybe I will get two years. That would be nice as long as I’m not bed ridden.